If you lots were wondering what happened to me period 4 today, this is the answer:
Over last few days I have decided that I needed someone to assist me to work out my mental trouble and the letter that I wrote to Madeline (which I forgot to get a copy of) easily told me and her that I am in deep mental trouble. You should know my mental trouble if you read my blog. I was in a severe depression and at some point was suicidal. It might be inconceivable for most of you but really it happened.
Hence today Amelia (the student welfare coordinator) invited me to her office and started to discuss my trouble. I am going to keep the content confidential (If you want to know come to me personally, really please, I am not going to answer this question over the internet) but a few major things I can talk about is that it relieved me, at least I knew I have worked out most of my trouble. I am still a person of a kind, but it's a lot better than what it used to be. :-)
One of the outcomes that I am really happy about is that I got a referral to more sophisticated social workers down in Box Hill. (Like what jouyou-san did). I really look forward to working with the person to make more comfortable. There's nothing better than getting professional help even though it's up to me to sort out the mess that I am in but really the fact that I am doing something about it is a good sign.
If you want a complete background to my deep mental trouble and depression, comment on this post and at some point I will be more than gladly to write about it.
But until some point tomorrow or Saturday, Farewell.
It's always hard for me explain all the things behind theoretical Science. I don't even understand a lot of the theories behind it (What would you expect of a senior high school student anyway?). But they are fascinating, very fascinating. It can stop me from pursuing other business that forces me to deal with repression and isolation which easily breaks my integrity into pieces.
One can enjoy the theory produced by both Rutherford and Schrödinger which transformed the whole experience of pursuing theoretical science from am unknown area into an wide area that is being actively pursuit by scientist all over the world. It opened the door for Engineers' to build model based on new theories coming out each year. Previous theories can be also challenged and modified to improve our understandings of the world.
But why do people don't appreciate theoretical Science? There's more reasons than that they wouldn't care or there's nothing do with their daily living. Now I'd really want to get into the detail of each reason.
By then my body is not allowing my mental thinking process to function well enough for me to finish this article today. Better go to bed and sleep :).
