I am finding it hard to fall asleep lately. At least it's a lot harder than normal. I used to fall asleep easily but this few days it doesn't happen any more. It often takes me 1 hour or so to finally fall asleep (espically yesterday). Is it Insomnia because I just thinking too much about my future and other important things or am I just not tired to sleep?
People's expectations of me is making me feeling stressful. This type of stress, with the addition of my own and my family's addition is really adding up right now. I know I can get into Engineering but how should I ensure that I force myself into an advantageous position to respond to all this expectations? overworking by over studying? No, that's not the way out. I have enough stress to take care of already. I need to really think about how to respond to all this stress all else it will be ultimately the downfall of me.
The next thing, even if I get into Engineering which one of the two (Mechatronics vs Electrical and Computer Systems Engineering) should I do? I have heavy interest in both areas. I love robotics and Mechatronics gives me a really good introduction pathway for me do so. Electrical and Computer Systems Engineering also gives me pathway to get into microchip designing and Computer System designing which some of the people in the field knows that earns quite a lot.There's only one thing to decide here, $$$. It's going to be a 2 hard years for me to decide which to apply....
This matter is getting fairly serious, should I really go to ask her out again when I reckon we've built a strong enough friendship (still really fragile to be honest as I don't talk to her much at all these days)?
Or should I just shelve it (I am more favoured towards this idea) and just ignore her( since I heavily doubt that she likes me anyway) to keep hitting the books so that I remained completely focused towards my absolute goal of BEng @ Monash? Whether spending some of my time keep finding chances to talk to her or just simply give up and hit the books will be a hard one for me to decide.
It's getting bit late for me to prepare for my English Pratice SAC... really should go back and hit the books now.
