Since I rediscovered IRC and Twitter, my reliance on it as a form of social support has been growing slowly.
It's now a point where IRC'ing (predominantly) and Twittering has became a part of my overworked and overstressed life. I even spend my lunch time at school on IRC when I'm not busy or I don't have other commitments.
It's an actual fact that I have more friends on IRC and Twitter that I commonly talk to than my real life.
The power of IRC introduced me to people like Clbh,Bevcom and Q-bean which are all friendly people and they all pack a punch. :-) These days I am either stuck in #Internode or #ubuntu (If I have problems running my virtual box). I do idle on #gamesonnet and quite a few channels though.
Twitter is basically another world for me. I often talk 201-nishi-san, Jouyou-san and kai-Inamoto-san.... We just talk about anime, Gal-Games , Railways or even our own life. This made me a happier person which I don't usually show to my friends at school. It also changed my life beacuse it really made up my decision to study Dip in Japanese because I want to go to Japan and meet them.
It's not comparable to the likes of my school no one has a clue no Anime (seriously, zero). By all means, I am cynical of everyone in my school just because of that and in no sense I am going to apologise for that. There's no one in my school that shares the same interest as me (Fletchie should be). Hence I don't really make friends inside of school by employing my interest, but instead using my not-so-good academic ability.
Above all that it slowly repaired the damage done to my mental capabilities
after being rejected by Madeline. I admit that it took me a long struggle of 4 months to get most mental damage repaired. At one point during May, I was near suicidal because of the combined damage of this and my other failure, academic (I didn't do well in Chemistry and English at that point). At that point, I almost jumped on to the tracks in Melbourne Central platform 4. But then, there comes IRC and Twitter which really helped to get out of that state of mind.
Now most of that mental damage is repaired, but some (minor) of it still stays in my mind. I still think about her each day, not for long though as I have other things to think about (My IRC, twitter life and academica life). Still I consider is fixed. I am all over it now.
Time for bed so night :-)
It's always hard for me explain all the things behind theoretical Science. I don't even understand a lot of the theories behind it (What would you expect of a senior high school student anyway?). But they are fascinating, very fascinating. It can stop me from pursuing other business that forces me to deal with repression and isolation which easily breaks my integrity into pieces.
One can enjoy the theory produced by both Rutherford and Schrödinger which transformed the whole experience of pursuing theoretical science from am unknown area into an wide area that is being actively pursuit by scientist all over the world. It opened the door for Engineers' to build model based on new theories coming out each year. Previous theories can be also challenged and modified to improve our understandings of the world.
But why do people don't appreciate theoretical Science? There's more reasons than that they wouldn't care or there's nothing do with their daily living. Now I'd really want to get into the detail of each reason.
By then my body is not allowing my mental thinking process to function well enough for me to finish this article today. Better go to bed and sleep :).
